“When I am weak, then I am strong.”


I haven’t written anything here in a while, but I don’t want you all to think I’ve fallen off the face of the earth or anything. It’s just that I am currently dealing with writing my final (final! as in never again until grad school final!) papers, studying for exams so I don’t mess up my chances of graduating Summa Cum Laude, coming to terms with the fact that my 91-year-old grandfather’s heart is a ticking time-bomb that could suffer a massive heart-attack at any minute, and counting down the last 23 days until I am married. I have spent a lot of time letting people minister to me recently, rejuvenating my own soul instead of really reaching out to others. The Bible studies I’ve been doing recently haven’t really struck me as anything I could make helpful to anyone but myself: I’m sure that many of you out there would benefit from studies on marriage as much as I can, but having no experience as of yet, I don’t really feel comfortable writing how-tos.

But here’s something I have had quite a bit of experience with lately: attempting to relax and let the Lord take over.

Those of you who know me may be laughing right now at the very thought of me “relaxing” and letting anybody take over. I am usually the most extreme micro-manager on earth; whether it comes to my own responsibilities or groups I’m involved in, I am far too paranoid to delegate responsibilities to anyone else. But in an attempt to avoid a mental breakdown from all the stress that could potentially result from my current situation(s), I have simply decided not to worry about it, only pray that God will take my life into His holy hands.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” (Phillipians 4:6)

I am sure we have all heard that verse too many times to count, and I don’t know about you, but it didn’t have quite the impact it should have on my life until quite recently. For the longest time, whenever I would worry about something and someone quoted that verse to me, I only worried more, this time not only about what had been previously bothering me, but about my own inability to trust in Christ. I’m confident that was not God’s intention when He gave out such divine instructions.

I am also confident that God knows better than we do what we are capable of.

It is only within the past few weeks, when more burdens than I have ever held have been handed to me, that I have been able to truly say, “Lord, I can’t. You can.” And maybe those words are supposed to be spoken in a different context; maybe I still haven’t truly given all my life up to the Lord’s work, but I have certainly been able to stop worrying about the most distracting earthly things (the wedding, my final exams, my grandfather’s sickness) because I know that if they are important, God will take care of them.

I do not think it’s a coincidence that when I actually have things in my life worth worrying about, I can entrust those things to God.

7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
– 2 Corinthians 12:7-10

God’s power is made perfect in weakness!

The answer to why I haven’t been able to trust God with my worries until this point is that they were not worries that weakened me to my core; they were issues I believed I could handle on my own. Now, when I am truly weak and I know for a fact there is no way I can make it through each day without the Lord carrying me accross the sand, He has granted me the grace to trust in Him. In fact, He has withdrawn all other options from my life.

And now I can only praise God for allowing me to suffer afflictions frightening enough that I am forced to stand back and watch as the Lord handles them, and pours out blessings.

I know this is not quite a message of ministry or an organized devotional or study, but I hope that it inspires you. The Lord is good, and all-powerful, and there is no affliction on Earth that He cannot handle. And when there is a time in your life when you feel you can’t go on alone, you will not have to. If you are realistic enough to realize that you cannot, you will not even try. Remember that “the Lord will provide.” (Genesis 22:8)

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10 Comments

  1. Carlos V said,

    February 19, 2008 at 3:36 am

    Hello there!, good evening!, these are really profound words that touched my heart, and ,made me reflect on many aspects of my christian life and experience . Throughout my life i have been worrying about a wide range of circumstances and problems such as my current medical studies, finances, etc. In the midst of reading your comments and inspirational message I couldn´t help feeling identified with many features of your life that seemed like a reflection of my own life and the same direction it might be moving toward . Recently, i have lost discipline and i am kind of slacking and that really scares me because I need to have a full bar energy and strength to successfully hold my M.D degree in Venezuela and commit wholeheartedly to this lifelong profession ..and the key to doing this lies in God’s word for the lord can only carry me accross the sand and pick me up when i am down and his power is made perfect in weakness as the bible says

  2. sabesi said,

    February 26, 2008 at 12:03 am

    Absolutely! I’m so blessed that you found inspiration in my words. Praise God for that, because none of that could have happened without the Holy Spirit directing my path.

    I’ll leave you with one more bit of encouragement: our God is the maker of Heaven and Earth, meaning He is the Lord of all things. All things! He is the Lord of your studies, the Lord of your finances, and yes, He is even the Lord of your laziness or discipline, depending on the situation. Pray that God would take these aspects of your life into His hands and do His will with them. I doubt He will respond by making you feel less motivated!

  3. Julianne said,

    May 11, 2009 at 2:42 pm

    Hello…i was blessed as i read this. Right now i’m going through what seems to be more than i can bare. But i’m holding on to God’s promises with all that i have in me. Now that my sight and my heart seems to have failed my and my faith seems to waver…i tend to feel guilty that i’m on the wrong side of the road. But reading your blog reminded me that God is in control even when things are is chaos.

  4. Linda said,

    November 30, 2009 at 11:47 pm

    Very encouraging and human message! I was feeling weak, but need to feel strong, and stumbled to your blog.

  5. Don said,

    May 20, 2010 at 1:41 pm

    I was looking for the scripture that included ‘when I am weak…’ and found your page. My wife is really going thru some tough times right now and she needs encouragement,so thank you Jesus for leading me here! I appreciate your page and may God bless your marriage.

  6. Maria said,

    October 26, 2010 at 5:42 am

    hii.. very beautiful post… was searching for the verse and came across it 🙂 keep posting 🙂

  7. douglas said,

    June 12, 2011 at 6:13 pm

    i had been struggling for a long time on this one sin issue a spiritually painful thorn i was searching for answers in Gods Word online and stumbled across this page.praise the Lord it gave me much needed hope and understanding

  8. Rl said,

    September 16, 2011 at 2:00 am

    Tonight you have encouraged my soul! Glory to God, thank you for this message.

  9. wilson said,

    March 19, 2012 at 2:51 pm

    Thanx for the good work. it is so encouraging

  10. October 16, 2012 at 10:51 am

    This is so on point. Submitting to God’s Word is wisdom. Thank you for sharing such a “life” lesson. AMEN


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