Thank you.


Hi again.

I just wanted to take a moment to post here and say “thank you” to anybody out there reading. This morning, this blog had its 25,000th hit. I am stunned beyond belief; the number is incomprehensible to me.

God has done great things, I trust, with the Hinds’ Feet on High Places study guide I posted exactly four years ago today. I had no idea when I wrote it that it would be used as a spiritual tool for so many people. I simply felt compelled, at the time, to try to chronicle and organize what the Lord was teaching me so I could share it with my book club. I followed that leading, and through it the Holy Spirit has borne much fruit.

I am so amazed to know you are out there reading. I am so humbled to know that God would use me, and a simple moment in my life, to do eternal Kingdom work. And this morning I just want to share with anybody who may be wondering if they’ll ever amount to anything: you may never know the impact you will have, but God does.

If you are out there blogging and nobody seems to notice, keep blogging. If you are serving without a thank you, keep serving. If you feel lost in the darkness and don’t know where to turn, reach out to God – He sees you.

Persevere, beloved; persevere. He does cause all things to work together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose (Ro 8:28). Believe Him.

A New Creation – Again!


Wow, where do I even begin?

I thought I had left this blog behind in the dust. I thought I had walked away from it, never to come back. I figured nobody would miss it anyway.

For most of 2009, I was not living the Christ life. I became pregnant early on in the year and it consumed me – and my dedication to God with it. I was so worried that God would take my baby from me in order to teach me something through suffering that I refused to come to him with an attitude of trust. I walked my own way because I bought into the lie that God is not good.

My baby is now almost four months old. She is beautiful and perfectly healthy, and God loves her.

This year I have recommitted myself to living obediently to God. I started writing again and have two other blogs now, which I will link in the sidebar. And then yesterday I was invited to participate in a community blog for Christian women that is hosted here on wordpress.

At first I was worried – did I really have to come back into this account? I considered deleting all my entries so no one would know I was ever here before – a kind of fresh start, or more literally, a blank page. But when I logged in…

My word. Just because I’ve been gone and disobedient to God doesn’t mean all of the world has. This blog has had over 15,000 views. I had 50 comments waiting to be moderated. (For those of you who asked me questions in those comments, I am so sorry I did not respond! Please forgive me.) This blog was doing God’s eternal work even if I wasn’t.

God is so amazing! My heart was so full of praises for Him this morning. I was truly touched to find that I hadn’t been forgotten forever.

I will probably continue to post on this page, but the posts will be of a more personal nature. I have enough places to post devotionals and God-thoughts for the time being (and I welcome and encourage you to visit them). As for the future, who knows what will happen? I certainly didn’t expect this when I started this blog two years ago. Let’s see what another two years will bring.

It’s Friday… But Sunday’s Comin’!


My mother-in-law sent this to me this morning. It’s quite short, but I think it does serve to remind us well of what must have seemed, to Christ’s disciples, to be the darkest hour possible. It also serves to remind us of the joy we have in our savior’s death for us.

Often, we tend to focus on the violence and horror of Good Friday – we weep for what was done to our Savior. And yes, that is part of the reverence of Holy Week. But I urge you: don’t forget that Resurrection Sunday is coming! He died that we might never die, “so that, as sin reigned in death, even so grace would reign through righteousness to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Rom 5:21)

Amen!

Matthew 26:1-25 – Avoid Becoming a Judas


Matthew 26
1When Jesus had finished all these words, He said to His disciples, 2“You know that after two days the Passover is coming, and the Son of Man is to be handed over for crucifixion.” 3Then the chief priests and the elders of the people were gathered together in the court of the high priest, named Caiaphas; 4and they plotted together to seize Jesus by stealth and kill Him. 5But they were saying, “Not during the festival, otherwise a riot might occur among the people.”

6Now when Jesus was in Bethany, at the home of Simon the leper, 7a woman came to Him with an alabaster vial of very costly perfume, and she poured it on His head as He reclined at the table. 8But the disciples were indignant when they saw this, and said, “Why this waste? 9For this perfume might have been sold for a high price and the money given to the poor.” 10But Jesus, aware of this, said to them, “Why do you bother the woman ? For she has done a good deed to Me. 11“For you always have the poor with you; but you do not always have Me. 12“For when she poured this perfume on My body, she did it to prepare Me for burial. 13“Truly I say to you, wherever this gospel is preached in the whole world, what this woman has done will also be spoken of in memory of her.”

14Then one of the twelve, named Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests 15and said, “What are you willing to give me to betray Him to you?” And they weighed out thirty pieces of silver to him. 16From then on he began looking for a good opportunity to betray Jesus.

17Now on the first day of Unleavened Bread the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Where do You want us to prepare for You to eat the Passover?” 18And He said, “Go into the city to a certain man, and say to him, ‘The Teacher says, “My time is near ; I am to keep the Passover at your house with My disciples.”‘” 19The disciples did as Jesus had directed them; and they prepared the Passover.

20Now when evening came, Jesus was reclining at the table with the twelve disciples. 21As they were eating, He said, “Truly I say to you that one of you will betray Me.” 22Being deeply grieved, they each one began to say to Him, “Surely not I, Lord?” 23And He answered, “He who dipped his hand with Me in the bowl is the one who will betray Me. 24The Son of Man is to go, just as it is written of Him; but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had not been born.” 25. And Judas, who was betraying Him, said, “Surely it is not I, Rabbi?” Jesus said to him, “You have said it yourself.”
— NASB

Considering the approaching anniversary of our Lord’s death and resurrection, this is where I began reading my Bible this morning.

The first thing that struck me about this passage is how utterly specific Jesus was when He prophesied about His own death in verse two. You’ll recall that He alluded to His death often when He spoke with the disciples, but usually in parables or in such a way that He did not make clear what was actually going to come to pass. Here, at this moment, in this very verse, Jesus revealed to them all that He was going to be crucified, and in a matter of days.

This knowledge makes the disciples’ reaction to the woman with the alabaster jar particularly appalling. The context of the passage reveals that Jesus had made it clear – in no uncertain terms – that He was going to be crucified in a matter of days. He explains in verse twelve that the woman’s intention was to prepare Him for burial. Obviously, the twelve disciples and Jesus’s other followers knew and understood that He was about to give His life. And yet this is the only record (at least in this chapter of Matthew) of anyone acknowledging that fact.

The second thing that occurred to me when I read this passage was the absolute sovereignty of our God. In verse 24, Jesus says: “The Son of Man is to go, just as it is written of Him; but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had not been born.” Jesus knew that He was going to die – that it was the only way for Him to save us; but more than that, Jesus knew that He was going to die one way or another, regardless of Judas’s betrayal. When He said “The Son of Man is to go, just as it is written of Him,” he was speaking of the fulfillment of prophecy and the carrying out of God’s holy will. True, it was Judas who ultimately made the decision to hand Jesus over to the chief priests, but our Father’s will would have been accomplished no matter what – and no man would stand in His way. Even His own son’s prayer for mercy could not deter the Father from His ultimate, holy goal (Matt 26:39).

But all this got me to thinking – why did Judas do what he did? How could he betray his teacher, the man he followed, the one they called the Messiah, for thirty pieces of silver? Please note that from here on out, I am purely speculating about something that isn’t necessarily addressed in the Bible, so take everything I say with a grain of salt. But you would think that someone who had been following Jesus as long as Judas had would have learned some of the principles that Jesus taught, and become aware of the consequences for those who did not abide by His teachings.

As I prayed about this today, I came to the conclusion that there were several possible reasons that Judas betrayed Christ – the first being that it was the means to God’s end. This is another one of those moments when a man meant his actions for evil, but God meant them for good (see Gen 50:20). Judas betrayed Christ because it was God’s will that His son take our punishment.

But even when we admit the fact that, yes, there is no “if” Judas hadn’t betrayed Christ, there is still an amount of personal responsibility to be laid upon Judas’s shoulders. He made the decision to turn against his teacher, his Rabbi, and his friend.

I heard a sermon on the radio this afternoon while I was thinking about this topic. The pastor was speaking about how there isn’t a safe environment in our churches; people cannot come to church and feel relief to confess their sins in front of their brothers and sisters and be in prayer for one another. Instead, there is an attitude of condemnation that makes us want to bottle up our sins and pretend to be living lives that we are not (this, by the way, is the definition of a hypocrite). I’m firmly convinced that Satan uses this against us to rob us of the freedom we have in Christ.

But I wonder – could such an attitude have contributed to Judas’s heinous actions? Could Judas have been so consumed by greed the entire time that he followed our Lord that it ate him up inside? Did he feel like he couldn’t confess to the evil in his heart, and did he let that drive him away from his Father in Heaven? Again, I will remind you that I am speculating here, but yes, I think the guilt Judas may have been carrying around for what he knew was evil in his own heart could have driven him to forsake his master.

Is that so hard to believe? Doesn’t it attack us, too? I can certainly say that there have been times in my life when I have known that God was pointing directly at a sin in my heart, and my response has not been to pray for forgiveness, but to run from the condemnation. Brothers and sisters, it is so important that we not let our guilt enslave us like this! Our God loves us, and trying to pretend He isn’t there will only increase our problems, not liberate us from them. Please remember: “Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Rom 8:1) – so stay in Him!

The last reason I thought of for why Judas may have done what he did came from the sermon my pastor gave this past Sunday morning. We have been studying the book of 1 Timothy, and we looked at the last two verses this week. This is where Paul exhorts Timothy to “guard what has been entrusted to [him]” (v 20), that being the Gospel of Christ. Our pastor took us to Matthew 13, where Jesus tells the disciples the Parable of the Sower. He says, by way of explanation, “When anyone hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what has been sown in his heart” (v 19). Our pastor was illustrating the point that if we don’t guard what we have been taught, Satan can steal it from us!

Is there an area in your spiritual life that you have gone over and over, but on which you still have not learned a lesson? Is there a lesson that God has been trying to teach you that just doesn’t take root in your life? Maybe it is that you are too quick to anger; maybe you have a weakness for lust or greed. Christ says that if we do not sow the seed into our hearts, it doesn’t matter how many times we hear the lesson. It is understanding that is essential, not the teaching.

So Christ taught Judas; Judas heard Christ; Judas may have even listened in earnest and known that the words applied to him – but he did not sow the seed into his heart because he did not understand it.

Understanding the Word of God is of the utmost importance. How can we worship if we do not understand the worship our Lord desires? How can we evangelize if we do not understand what it is we teach? How can we live Godly lives if we do not understand what God has willed for us?

Pray for understanding! It is His desire for you to have the salvation that comes with it.

And if we are to avoid becoming a Judas – a betrayer of our Lord and of our faith – we must avoid the things that ensnared him. First, remember that if God wills it, it will come to pass; everything is under His holy control. Second, do not let your guilt and sins drive you from your Father. It is during these times that you need His loving forgiveness the most! And lastly, “guard what has been entrusted to you, avoiding worldly and empty chatter and the opposing arguments of what is falsely called ‘knowledge’ – which some have professed and thus gone astray from the faith.

Grace be with you.” (1 Tim 6:20-21).